FURIOUS!

Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me ... fool me three times, I'm a idiot!

My old boss(Tricia, the mom of the children I USED TO nanny) paid me over a $1000 for my work for the last couple of times I watched her children. I look at my account today and guess what? My check bounced that she gave me. NO GOOD! She did that to me last time she paid me, and the first time she ran into my car and when she paid for the damages then the check bounced. I just don't know what to do. I paid a lot of bills and now we seriously only have $23 in our account that is suppose to last us until the 1st. HA. I am soooooooooo angry I don't even know what to do. You might say, " Well go to her work." Yeah I've done that. She's never there when I arrive and I am not going to wait around all day. I also nanny during the day for a new family and I don't have time to do that. If this doesn't get cleared up by tomorrow, I am taking her to small claims. This is ridiculous. I should've known better. I just figured since she works for a new company she wouldn't be giving me bad checks anymore. I guess that is what I get from a woman who thinks buying a new IPHONE is more important then paying her debt. :(

I don't know why money is such a struggle right now for us. I feel like when we finally get above water ... we sink down again. :(

I'm really depressed.

Melissa

Noah's new shoes

I bought Noah some croc sandals today. His feet are soooo wide he can't fit into regular shoes. I put these on him (a size 6/7) and he walks around just great. Here is a pic and a video:

New Hair, Noah's Boo Boo, new Nanny Job, and me writing a book (WHAT!)

So I have a lot to blog about:

I quite my previous nanny job because it was way too stressful on my life. The kids were not behaved and abusive. I had pliars thrown at my face. I was also told that they were going to tell their parents that I was hitting them. I was appalled and when I tried to discuss this with their parents they started accusing me of really beating their children. I never felt as if I could express my concern for my well being or health and how things could be different. I was with their kids 9 or more hours a day 5 days a week. They'd call me and ask me to come clean their homes on weekends. I was suppose to do errands for them and watch their dogs when they went out of town and didn't expect to pay me or not pay me enough. It was horrible. When I called and gave my two weeks they started to say that I was hitting their kids and abusing them and that their son, Cole, never started to talk about his private parts until I came around. I was angry and I told them I wouldn't be coming back at all, and I don't appreciate that I was treated this way after everything I have done for them. I hope they get anthor nanny and she doesn't put up with the crap that I put up with.

So I got a new nanny job. The couple is still married (previous one was divorced so I was always in the middle of their arguments anyways) and they listen to me when I tell them about situations. I also can sit down and discuss better ways to do my job and what we can do together and it's just nice and don't leave angry. I don't come home and tell Aaron how much I hate it, I don't even discuss it. It's awesome.

So before I started my new nanny job I had two weeks off. It made me realize how much I hated just staying at home. Aaron's mother gave me this coupon book last year for Christmas and I haven't used any of it and it expires on Sept 1st. So I went and got hair cut and hair coloring. It's an inverted bob in the back and longer in the front. I really like it. I just always have to do my hair ... or it will look wierd. Here's a couple of pics :

Noah got hurt on Monday. The kids I nanny were playing on a little bed and Noah was standing next to it holding onto the side rail. He was laughing at them and jumping and his feet slid underneath him and he hit his nose on the rail. I freaked out and thought he might have broken his nose. After about 45 min of crying I turned on Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and he calmed down and then took a nap. I took him to instacare and the doctor said that he didn't think it was broken but since at their age their noses is just cartiledge it's hard to tell. He said that after the swelling has gone down to look and see if there is a kink in the nose. He also said his teeth looked wonderful :).

Here are some pics of his accident:

So, I started writing a book. Yes, I'm actually writing a book. It's kinda theraputic, and my therapist told me I can deal with a lot of feelings or past traumatic events by writing them down. I went through a lot of things growing up and not a lot of people understand. I suffered through horrible eating disorders for 6 years of my life. Unless you go through it you don't fully understand the mental and phsyical damage it does to you. It lives with you for your whole live. I definitly don't look like I have an eating disorder now, but I think about it everyday. There's more to the book then just that, kinda an auto biografical type of thing, but we'll see how it goes. I've wanted to do this for a few years, I just start and then stop.

So here's anthor pic of Noah:

go Utes!

My day yesterday

So, this weekend I got wonderful news. I got a new nanny job that starts in two weeks! So, I quit with the evil nanny job I have now. I told the parents on Saturday and they told me some stuff that I was really upset with. The started accusing me of theft and hitting their children and some other things. I was going to work for them for the next two weeks but I felt so uncomfertable that I just didn't go back. Which is fine, I am not going to use them as a reference anyways. I thought to myself well I have NBO to fall back on and i can just work a little bit more hours this week and next week before I start.

Well, Monday I was cleaning the house and playing with Noah and I was also talking to my mom on the phone when I get a phone call from my boss at NBO. I answer the phone and she gives me bad news: I was laid off. :( So, I kinda knew this was coming because the company is actually not doing well fiancially, but I was hoping I would be able to quit before getting laid off. I was soooooooo upset. This is part of my income and it's gone. I am not really sure what we are going to do now. I contemplating going back to Garts and working p/t at night but that would be my very very very last resort. I don't want to be working in retail again. Well, atleast that kind of retail. Where they stay until midnight or 1am because they weren't prepared for an audit or a visit, or I have to work every single holiday.
We want to move to Washington but our house is keeping us here. If things keep going like this we won't be able to afford a house payment anymore :(. I'm just really depressed and I feel like things keep going downhill for us. I thought it was going up because I got this new nanny job, but that's not how things are going.

Ugh.