FURIOUS!

Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me ... fool me three times, I'm a idiot!

My old boss(Tricia, the mom of the children I USED TO nanny) paid me over a $1000 for my work for the last couple of times I watched her children. I look at my account today and guess what? My check bounced that she gave me. NO GOOD! She did that to me last time she paid me, and the first time she ran into my car and when she paid for the damages then the check bounced. I just don't know what to do. I paid a lot of bills and now we seriously only have $23 in our account that is suppose to last us until the 1st. HA. I am soooooooooo angry I don't even know what to do. You might say, " Well go to her work." Yeah I've done that. She's never there when I arrive and I am not going to wait around all day. I also nanny during the day for a new family and I don't have time to do that. If this doesn't get cleared up by tomorrow, I am taking her to small claims. This is ridiculous. I should've known better. I just figured since she works for a new company she wouldn't be giving me bad checks anymore. I guess that is what I get from a woman who thinks buying a new IPHONE is more important then paying her debt. :(

I don't know why money is such a struggle right now for us. I feel like when we finally get above water ... we sink down again. :(

I'm really depressed.

Melissa

Noah's new shoes

I bought Noah some croc sandals today. His feet are soooo wide he can't fit into regular shoes. I put these on him (a size 6/7) and he walks around just great. Here is a pic and a video:

New Hair, Noah's Boo Boo, new Nanny Job, and me writing a book (WHAT!)

So I have a lot to blog about:

I quite my previous nanny job because it was way too stressful on my life. The kids were not behaved and abusive. I had pliars thrown at my face. I was also told that they were going to tell their parents that I was hitting them. I was appalled and when I tried to discuss this with their parents they started accusing me of really beating their children. I never felt as if I could express my concern for my well being or health and how things could be different. I was with their kids 9 or more hours a day 5 days a week. They'd call me and ask me to come clean their homes on weekends. I was suppose to do errands for them and watch their dogs when they went out of town and didn't expect to pay me or not pay me enough. It was horrible. When I called and gave my two weeks they started to say that I was hitting their kids and abusing them and that their son, Cole, never started to talk about his private parts until I came around. I was angry and I told them I wouldn't be coming back at all, and I don't appreciate that I was treated this way after everything I have done for them. I hope they get anthor nanny and she doesn't put up with the crap that I put up with.

So I got a new nanny job. The couple is still married (previous one was divorced so I was always in the middle of their arguments anyways) and they listen to me when I tell them about situations. I also can sit down and discuss better ways to do my job and what we can do together and it's just nice and don't leave angry. I don't come home and tell Aaron how much I hate it, I don't even discuss it. It's awesome.

So before I started my new nanny job I had two weeks off. It made me realize how much I hated just staying at home. Aaron's mother gave me this coupon book last year for Christmas and I haven't used any of it and it expires on Sept 1st. So I went and got hair cut and hair coloring. It's an inverted bob in the back and longer in the front. I really like it. I just always have to do my hair ... or it will look wierd. Here's a couple of pics :

Noah got hurt on Monday. The kids I nanny were playing on a little bed and Noah was standing next to it holding onto the side rail. He was laughing at them and jumping and his feet slid underneath him and he hit his nose on the rail. I freaked out and thought he might have broken his nose. After about 45 min of crying I turned on Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and he calmed down and then took a nap. I took him to instacare and the doctor said that he didn't think it was broken but since at their age their noses is just cartiledge it's hard to tell. He said that after the swelling has gone down to look and see if there is a kink in the nose. He also said his teeth looked wonderful :).

Here are some pics of his accident:

So, I started writing a book. Yes, I'm actually writing a book. It's kinda theraputic, and my therapist told me I can deal with a lot of feelings or past traumatic events by writing them down. I went through a lot of things growing up and not a lot of people understand. I suffered through horrible eating disorders for 6 years of my life. Unless you go through it you don't fully understand the mental and phsyical damage it does to you. It lives with you for your whole live. I definitly don't look like I have an eating disorder now, but I think about it everyday. There's more to the book then just that, kinda an auto biografical type of thing, but we'll see how it goes. I've wanted to do this for a few years, I just start and then stop.

So here's anthor pic of Noah:

go Utes!

My day yesterday

So, this weekend I got wonderful news. I got a new nanny job that starts in two weeks! So, I quit with the evil nanny job I have now. I told the parents on Saturday and they told me some stuff that I was really upset with. The started accusing me of theft and hitting their children and some other things. I was going to work for them for the next two weeks but I felt so uncomfertable that I just didn't go back. Which is fine, I am not going to use them as a reference anyways. I thought to myself well I have NBO to fall back on and i can just work a little bit more hours this week and next week before I start.

Well, Monday I was cleaning the house and playing with Noah and I was also talking to my mom on the phone when I get a phone call from my boss at NBO. I answer the phone and she gives me bad news: I was laid off. :( So, I kinda knew this was coming because the company is actually not doing well fiancially, but I was hoping I would be able to quit before getting laid off. I was soooooooo upset. This is part of my income and it's gone. I am not really sure what we are going to do now. I contemplating going back to Garts and working p/t at night but that would be my very very very last resort. I don't want to be working in retail again. Well, atleast that kind of retail. Where they stay until midnight or 1am because they weren't prepared for an audit or a visit, or I have to work every single holiday.
We want to move to Washington but our house is keeping us here. If things keep going like this we won't be able to afford a house payment anymore :(. I'm just really depressed and I feel like things keep going downhill for us. I thought it was going up because I got this new nanny job, but that's not how things are going.

Ugh.

sprinkler time!

Noah just loves water. Here he is having fun at the nanny job I have.

haha. He's so funny. Here's some random ones I took. I just love the one where he's smiling cuz you can see all his teethies!

I just love my son!

Melissa

Reflections

I was reading some of my friend's blogs regarding their pregnancies and when they went into labor. I started thinking about my experience and thought I would share it with you.

So it was May 29th, 2007. I was working at The Sport's Authority in the morning, and so miserable. I couldn't stand or sit without being in pain. A lot of people were telling me it was back labor and I was like, great. I am going to have back labor and that is horrible (I read about it and dreaded it!). I left work early and went to a schedueled doctor's appointment and told my doctor (who was the best and I will surely miss him when I eventually have anthor!) that I was in so much pain. I was even dialated yet though. I wasn't sure what a contraction felt like and was afriad I wouldn't know when I was having a baby. So, Dr. Susanka said for me to just go to the hospital tomorrow morning at 6:00 and tell them I was having back labor/pain. He would come in at 7:30am and break my water for me. LOL. yeah it is cheating but oh well. So, Aaron and I got ready the night before and had a good nights sleep ... kind've. I was in so much pain I really couldn't sleep. We got there around 6:10am on May 30th 2007, and the nurse was nice but told me that I wasn't dialated or anything I was worried they would send me away before my doctor got there. He arrived at 7:30 and broke my water. Theb nurse got a little mad and asked me if the doctor had asked me to come in and he'd break my water. I told her no, which was a lie, but I didn't want to get him in trouble and what was the big deal anways?
So, I was waiting and the nurse asked me if I wanted an epidural before the guy went into a C-Section. I wasn't sure ... I didn't want one too early and I wasn't having any contractions yet. They had given me the pitocin earlier and I asked how long it would take to have effect. She said, "Oh you aren't very far along so it will be a while. " Ok, so she must have been on crack because it only took 45 min and I was having contractions every 2 minutes and they were the most painful things I have ever experience. I was crying and bawling to aaron. He felt bad for me but, of course, couldn't do anything. It was about noon and the guy was still doing the C-Section so I couldn't get the drugs. Dr. Susanka came in and asked why I hadn't gotten the epidural and I said it wasn't my fault that they guy wasn't available. :(
My sis in law came and held my hand (she was there while I had the epidural because Aaron couldn't handle the big needle) and FINALLY around 2pm I got my epidural. I was having contractions for 5 hours! You'd think I would have dialated but nope, I went from nothing to 3 cm. I was horrified that I would be in labor for 30 hours. After I got the drugs I felt wonderful and watched Over the Hedge and tried to sleep. About 5pm I started feeling a lot of pressure like I had to poop and I remembered that was what they said in a book I read that you are almost ready to have a baby. I called the nurse and she checked me and said I was ready at 10 cm. I was like wow! I went from a 3 to a 10 in only 3 hours. That epidural is a amazing! The only problem was, Aaron left to get his phone charger from home (we only live 15 min away, but it was during traffic). I was scared he was going to miss the birth of his own son! I started pushing and Aaron finally arrived around 5:30. He doesn't do well with blood and all that so he was having a hard time, but held his own. I only pushed for 25 min and little Noah was born. He's so amazing and I look at him and he's so independant and on his own now... just a year ago he couldn't hold his head up. It's amazing ... what a gift.

Melissa

dumb job!

Ok, so a lot of people know how much I HATE my nanny job. I've been interviewing for other jobs but nothing so far. I am tired of how bad they treat me. Here's the latest for today ...

I checked my Wells Fargo account online today because I check it everyday. I am a big stickler on money and I have to know every penny that is spent and sometimes money is taken out of my account that isn't accounted for. My finance class taught me that. It's good to keep a checkbook, but you need to check your account daily to make sure there isn't suspicious acitivity.

So, I am looking and my account balance is really low for just putting money in there. I see that there is a returned item check for $280.00 and a fee for $10.00. I am like, what the heck? So I call to see what it is, and guess what? The check that Tricia (the mom of the kids) gave me bounced for insufficent funds. I KNEW that this would happen! She struggles with money constantly and when she hit my car and had to pay $3000 to fix it, her check bounced then too. I am just so fed up. This is ridiculous don't you think?

Melissa